SELENA'S Book: Not My Plan, But God's Purpose

If there is one thing I hope you carry with you after reading my story, it is this: Do not underestimate what God can do with a broken life surrendered to Him on a healing journey.

There was a time I believed losing everything meant my life was over. I thought the rejection, the heartbreak, the silence, and the uncertainty would permanently define me. But God has a way of rebuilding people in the very places they thought they would never recover from. He rebuilt me in the silence. In the waiting. In the tears. In the prayers I whispered when I was too exhausted to say anything else.

And maybe you are in that kind of season right now. Maybe you are grieving something nobody else fully understands. Perhaps you are carrying pain quietly while still trying to function every day. Maybe you are questioning yourself because life hasn’t turned out the way you planned. But your story is not over. There is still healing ahead of you, hope and resilience waiting for you. Still growth ahead of you. Still peace ahead of you. Even now, God is still writing chapters you cannot see yet.

One day, the pain that nearly broke you may become the testimony that helps someone else survive. One day, you will realize that the season you begged God to remove was also the season He used to transform you through transformative faith healing. And one day, you may look back at the version of yourself who cried, questioned, struggled, and barely held on… and feel proud that you did not give up.

Some mornings I still sit quietly at the edge of my bed before the sun comes up, reminding myself to breathe before the day begins. Healing did not erase every scar.

There are still moments when anxiety tries to return. Moments when uncertainty feels louder than peace. Moments when I have to remind myself that my worth is not attached to productivity, titles, or the approval of people. But I am no longer the woman who collapsed under the weight of losing everything she thought defined her. Pain changed me. But healing changed me even more. Worship music still fills my living room while my treadmill moves beneath my feet six mornings a week. But now the tears that fall are different.

They no longer come only from grief. Sometimes they come from gratitude. Gratitude that I survived the season I thought would destroy me. Gratitude that God never abandoned me in the silence. Gratitude that even when life fell apart, He was still rebuilding something stronger inside of me.

I used to think success was the goal. Now I think peace is. Peace in knowing I no longer have to perform to deserve love. Peace in understanding that my value was never rooted in a position. Peace in trusting God even when I cannot see the full picture ahead of me.

There was a time when I begged God to restore what I lost. Now I thank Him for restoring me instead. Because what I truly needed could not be found in another paycheck, another title, or another accomplishment.

• I needed healing.
• I needed to surrender.
• I needed God.

If you are reading this while carrying grief, disappointment, exhaustion, uncertainty, or silent pain, I want you to remember this: You are not behind. You are not forgotten. And you are not ruined because life did not go according to your plan. Some seasons break you. Some seasons rebuild you. And sometimes they do both at the same time. However, even here, God is still working.

• Still healing
• Still restoring
•  Still guiding

And even if you cannot see it yet, there is still more ahead of you than what you left behind.

Thank you for allowing me to share my heart with you. Thank you for sitting with me through the grief, the rebuilding, the healing, and the faith.

And if no one has reminded you lately, let me remind you now: You are still here. And that means God is not finished with your story yet.

“Being confident of this very thing, that he which hath begun a good work in you will perform it until the day of Jesus Christ…” —Philippians 1:6.

“The Lord will fight for you; you need only to be still.” — Exodus 14:14.

• I am still healing
• Still growing
• Still becoming

And maybe that is the beauty of grace. God never asked me to become perfect. He only asked me not to give up.